Navigations are at the top.
if destiny decides that i should look the other way,
then the world will never know the greatest story ever told.
we've all arrived at the junction. here comes the time of the new year when paths shall once again cross and some backs turned. where will you be the next time the traffic light turns red? i see you standing by the roadside, awaiting to cross. the next moment, you're gone. just like the wind. memories become my best companion, but they will always be second to your presence. the new light of dawn draws near and will soon engulf the fading darkness of the night. the tears bombard my eyes as flashbacks of your visage overwhelm my thoughts. then i remember your smile. and the laughter and fun you brought to my life. i no longer stare at the empty road in which your presence once graced. i keep your promise close to my heart. i know we will meet at the cross roads once again, just like what you said.
it's just good night, but not goodbye.
Monday, December 11, 2006
im back from yet another day of work. it was eventful.
i did the opening of the outlet this morning. i was sanitizing the cloth needed for the cleaning of the signboards when i chanced upon someone. it appeared to be a woman at first sight, but upon closer inspection, the person seemed more like a man. a man? with long permed hair? skinny jeans? green adidas woman's jacket? ahh!!! confounded, i sprayed a mist of sanitizer, not at the cloth, but at the table and chair! i thot my eyes were playing tricks on me. later that afternoon, i told ver and xiao zhong. xiao zhong said that he was an ah gua. and ver kept wanting to know whether he was pretty or not! what the.
my second day as a cashier was pretty ok. in my eyes at least. i made several mistakes as expected. if only i was blessed with a photographic memory...or at least better hearing. i also seem to have a problem differentiating b/w pepper lunch and pepper rice. the greeting that i was supposed to say was "welcome to pepper lunch, may i take ur order?" but i added some spice and pepper lunch became pepper rice instead. coincidentally, pepper rice sales were at tops for today. i told the rest abt my horrible blunder. verena tan was laughing like a mad hyena! so much for being my fren! gosh! im going to get fried cuttlefish soon! though realising my mistake, i wasn't able to correct the fault completely. i nearly said "welcome to pepper rice" again to one customer, and was made to hold back my laughter. :/
haha. and richard went gaga over this girl just now. he was so into her asking for extra carrots to be added to her salmon pepper rice and said that this would only be done especially for her. aww. den later, he wrote a short note (number included) to her. but he couldn't muster enough courage; he said he was shy. haha. but xiao zhong, ver and i decided to take matters into our own hands! we wrote another note and passed it to her after much deliberation! richard was smiling secretly to himself after that! LOL! i will be expecting a wedding invitation soon! haha.
48 more hours to liberation! malacca, here i come!! ((: can't wait!! i will be receiving the pae posting as well. :'( what can i possibly expect? what CCA to join? ahh. chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi.
shall yvonne ma'am while distributing discount coupons this evening. haha. she was the only reason behind my smile. the process of flyer distribution really stinks! i loathe it more than any thing else. and i just can't bring myself to smile! as usual, 20 ppl can walk past you without even giving a damn abt what you have to offer them. but then again, it really is abt a matter of choice. so i gotta respect that. haha. and there was this indian lady who asked me for directions to orchard road. after receiving my directions, she asked me why was i standing there? haha. so cute. (: to think that i actually believed that singaporeans would typically be enticed to the idea of free discount coupons. i couldn't have been more wrong. oh well. that's all in a day's work. good luck to me tmr. it's gonna be another seemingly futile round of flyer distribution.
jiayou!
Saturday, December 09, 2006
watching the body building (60kg) segment of the asian games. woahh. i haf nothing to say. mother nature's work of art; plus a whole lot of hard work and sweat as well! singapore's representative wore yellow trunks; maybe this has some link to what bryan wong mentioned on today's LIFE segment. "wear yellow trunks? no problem!" lol. singpore got a bronze. not too bad lah. something is better than nothing! cheeros! ((:
but still, it's a rather disturbing sight. i already get the creeps when i try to visualise mr yau as a body bulider. well he was one. ahh, and those unforgettable arms with creeping veins. hah. one of the body builders is a 3-time mr. universe!! so hiong! makes me feel ashamed coz i can be likened as a big lump of wobbly fat. and speaking of size, 4 brothers who were of large built (for their age) ordered food at pepper lunch today. initially, they ordered 4 mini pepper rice. not too bad. i thot they were dieting. but i was so wrong. alarmingly, they ordered food for 3 consecutive rounds. wow. auntie annie was saying that normal humans eat thrice a day. haha. and they eat thrice during a meal. now, that's dangerous. tsk tsk.
in the second round, the body builder from macau did his poses using the pussycat doll's "Don't cha!". haha. entertaining for sure. i was overwhelmed with goose pimples. and these reps are like 160 odd kilos. i wonder what tanning oil they use? great effect. so shiny. ok, i know i'm beginning to sound sick. but it's really tough to outdo one's competitors in a mass display of muscles. i can sense the adrenaline rush in the females who are present at the live competition. they just look simply awed.
ok, back to work. today was horrendous. i had already braced myself for the worst after making a third consecutive mistake, but my colleagues were nice and showered me with constant words of encouragement. firstly, i did not remind daniel abt the fact that the customer did not want spring onions in his pepper rice. xiao zhong had to take the trouble of removing all of it subsequently. :( later, i did not say pepper steak loud enough for daniel to hear and he prepared hamburger steak instead. poor cow. and after i stacked 2 trays that held hot plates, bowls and food scraps at the sink and conveniently walked off, everything came crashing down in a matter of moments. damn!!! i dunno wad went over me during that span of time, but whatever it was, it defintely made me come to my senses! ding-dong, cheong keet! this is reality, this is work life! the customers are not your friends, they wun tolerate any nonsense! you cannot destroy a company's good name single-handedly! (not that i need any help in tainting pepper lunch's reputation, but still!) ahh!! den daniel sent me to pack bean sprouts and refill the salmon supply. hah, and i didn haf to go all the way to norway. it was in the fridge, and i couldn't even recognize the signature pink meat. wow. so much for having 6-6 eye sight!
my brother is a nerve-wrecker!! gone for nearly 2 weeks! and now he's back and as usual, extending his dominance over my world! damn it! it's not as though i had a perfectly wonderful day and needed some negativity to neutralise the goodness. i can't even get some peace. gosh. even life in slumber land is a dread these days. i'm haunted by the O'levels. i dreamt abt receiving my result slip and it reflected grades for 10 subjects instead of 8! what?! and my rabbit gave birth to 4 little bunnies and she had a husband! they were living in the cage with 2 other guinea pigs that appeared from nowhere and there were embryos as well! what is becoming of my supposedly peaceful slumber land?! am i that stressed? oh well, i'm just glad that my time-out is coming soon. but then again, i'm not too sure. i just hope that there wun be any tension during the short trip, and i hope even more that i wun be the cause of it.
i miss working wif sining and eating venezia ice cream! i know you miss me too, yeo. but the tag board is not functioning well at the moment. dolly ah, i'm so much heavier now. haha. that 500g loss was definitely water. you shld go bug the organizers for your pay! tsk tsk. nevertheless, jiayou! it was well-earned money. so handle it wisely and dun spend it all in one place! destined to be a housewife liao. so naggy. ahha.
good morning! and adios amigos! ((:
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Always on your side - Sheryl Crow Feat Sting
My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side
Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But my demons and my angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought I'd be
Too afraid to hear the words I'd always feared
Leavin' you with only questions all these years
But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be
Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side
But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be
Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side
rise and shine! it's a thursday morning! (:
ahha. i had a peculiar dream about someone whom i've buried deep in my heart. (wondering why i didn't opt for cremation?! hah. my heart is definitely not suffering from land scarcity. ((: and fond memories are meant for remembering.)
at age 12, he was like my sky. damn, i can't believe i said this. but girls are known to mature much earlier than guys. hah. and for the first 2 yrs of my secondary sch life, i strived to attend vj partly because of him. sounds dumb; but love is blind. so blind. with time, everything just faded away. these days, i'm numbed to such things (that's why i always say that i wun even haf a chance to be left on the shelf. why? coz i was never on it in the first place. haha. in too bad a condition to even be on display.)
but dreams can be so unpredictable. God knows why i even dreamnt of him in the first place. i knew that nothing would come out of this the very first time we met. but he was a great friend with a great sense of humour. haha. and a entertainer of all sorts as well. we used to play "who wants to be a millionaire" underneath our tables during lesson times. and we almost never got caught; but when we did, he stood up for me anyway. you see how moved my heart was. and i was only 11 then. i recall one occassion when i went to his house with another classmate for a group project. upon fulfilling the task, we decided on a game of badminton. 2 against 1 (my friend and i against him). and being a sucker at badminton at that time, i did the unthinkable or should i say totally unavoidable - i slapped his chest wif my racket accidentally. ouch. but it was really amusing. hah. no broken bones!
then as the feelings began to grow overwhelming, i thought of sharing some of it with him. perhaps that was one wrong move made and everything began crumbling down. in one day, i lost a friend to talk to and gained an arch foe. wow. see my prowess. i really do know how to scare people away. i also found out that he liked someone else in class. but no hard feelings; in fact, she was a really nice choice. but that was short-lived because she departed for the US subsequently.
i endured an entire year of teasing after that. the power of rumour; but it was true anyway, at least on my part. i chased him along corridors every single morning. hah. and enjoyed a sudden improvement in stamina in P6. but the 1.6km timing reeked all the same! apparently, i wasn't aware of how fast i should haf ran. i even walked during those 4 rounds and chatted merrily with a classmate. when i came to cedar, my timings for both the 1.6km and 2.4km run were the same! and it was not good at all! totally demoralizing.
i speculated for a very long time, not knowing whether he ever did feel a thing for me. some people said he did. but they never truly knew. and neither did i. i wanted to ask him about it when we graduated that very year, but i never found the courage to do so. but ignorance can be blissful at times as the truth always possesses a tendency to slam you right in the face. it's sad that even after 4 long years, i still feel as though something is missing in my life. what was his answer? that one word i yearned so much to hear (YES/NO lah!). ahh!
anyway, i still wun get my answer even though i feel really brave now. no vj for first 1 and 1/2 mths. but there's still something called a telephone and a number called home that i can dial. nahh! no way! i know the repercussions. not sweet at all!
aiyo! ok. shall pray very hard that my O'level results are flying with many nice colours! to be frank, i've already braced myself for extremely good results, not taking into consideration of the fact that i screwed phy and bio prac, left the SS paper incomplete, forgot to mention calcium silicate and the test for chlorides in chem paper, spelt mr. sim wong hoo's name wrongly for eng compo, wrote "yan yu" as "ci yu" for chi letter writing, used ke=1/2mv^2 instead of e=mc^2 for nuclear fission reaction in phy paper, and etc etc mistakes. remarkable, right? thou shall not lament. :'(
ahh. yesh! 1 more week to malacca trip! this time next week, i'll be on the bus there! yay! and i haf abt 2 hrs more to work. can smell more atsu atsu! yay! im such a sucker for curry! for fear not arteries, i am too poor to be able to afford a plate of atsu atsu. so that means that you are all safe from cholesterol and artery-clogging fatty foods. maybe it's just my wishful thinking. i hope not!
the sky is caving in. it's going to rain! bon voyage, wan yin and mil mil! oh crap! and i just rmbed, one more week to the release of the PAE posting results. ok, tj or aj, aj or tj. fullstop, i wun settle for more or less, so pls fulfill this simple wish of an easily-contented person. ((:
Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side
goodbye justin.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
returned from my second day of work at dhoby xchange pepper lunch express. business was quite ok, but they were 500 orders short of reaching their target of 2000. hah, and i didn kill anyone's steak today! cooking for the customers aint dat bad after all! after all, every thing falls into place with time. and i lost 500g. not too bad. bought dinner home for mum and myself. guess what? my mum had already bought my share. damn. so the weight loss was in vain. maybe it's just not my day.
distributed pepper lunch discount brochures twice today. it's hard to reach out to singaporeans. you will feel extremely demoralized because 20 people can walk right pass you though knowing that you only haf 1 more brouchure left to give out. haha. maybe i should haf employed the tactic used by this man when he was distributing flyers. he just shouted "eh, take!" and shoved it into sining's hands. how nice! he'd probably punch us if we had refused.
i can't wait for next thurs to come! yay! going to malacca! finally, i can shop till i drop! shall briefly summarize my shopping list:
1) broad shorts
2) more black shirts
3) skirt
4) wallet
5) shoes for jc
6) bag(s) -> maybe they haf crumpler there. hah. im such a sucker for cheap stuff.
7) snackerels (haha. what my bro and i call snacks bought in m'sia)
8) sining's bdae present lest i cant afford those fox pants (yes, you know fox, as in the brand. i am an animal lover (:)
9) grub (all those unneccesities)
10) polar fats (that are FREE yet totally inevitable given by the amount of food i'll consume)
wanyin's flying off to new zeland tmr. mil mil is going to. candice is stuck in europe (maybe she's dangling from the eiffel tower!). geraldine is in disneyland (bickering wif donald duck). ahh! and im on a tiny red dot. oh well, that's life!
Sunday, December 03, 2006
im currently making the best of my off day. i love my freedom. i love to rot and do nothing! but blogging is counted as something right? ok, first thing's first - we had an unexpected visitor in jalan paras. a third friend for the chickens. yup - you guessed it, a chicken! my parents were speculating about its presence and concluded that its irresponsible owner had abandoned it at our old house yesterday night. great. and i guess our unexpected guest is here to stay. haha. my dad said that animals are not meant to be caged up, and all creatures have a certain destiny. and i told him that we are destined to rear chickens. haha. so can jalan paras be counted as an animal shelter? probably, since we already have 3 chickens and 1 rabbit there. and i had this sudden urge to quit my job and spend some time back there to tend them.
poor little clucks. it can't possibly share a cage with the other 2 chickens as they are much larger in size and might attack it (see, size does matter after all!). so for now, it's on its own. and then we consider the possible dangers that threaten its survival. miao. ahh!! and once again, my dad stepped in and said that its small size gave it an advantage. he said that it's tenacious, and yeah, i gotta agree on this one coz it can fly! ok, not "flap-flap" like birds we see in the sky. but still, it was smart enough to seek shelter from the morning drizzle by flying up to a stone stool that was underneath the banana tree. haha. therefore, after much deliberation, i've decided to call it "tenacious". though that name happens to rhyme with delicious, i shalln't elaborate too much on that part. :/
my freedom will expire in slightly less than 24 hours. it's going to be yet another long and hectic day at work tmr afternoon. and verena tan made me promise to work wif her on tuesday (which is sining's bdae! ((:). initially, we had agreed for it to be our off day, but oh well! working at taka is exactly advantageous. in fact, it has more cons than pros. for instance, imagine having dinner at orchard everyday for the next 3 weeks. you won't even live to see the hole in your pocket; there will be nothing left!! hmm, and with christmas and new year coming up, work will just get increasingly taxing and strenuous. so we must all jiayou! ver ah, persevere! we will live to see the sun again! -.-"
and congrats to dolly for earning her keep at sitex! my dear mum told her that i was suffering at pepper lunch. as usual, working is no easy feat. im definitely looking forward to next next week when i can finally rot and fatten up! malacca trip! let's just put the topic of fats aside for once. hah! i'm just hoping that i will haf enough energy to shop coz like what sining said, an opportunity like that means only one thing for us working people - SLEEP! (: and there's guides chalet as well! yay! and a supposed 4p outing - gotta wreck my brains again to plan for it! oh yes, and not forgetting about the release of pae posting results on the 14th! which part of singapore will i be relocated to?! i really miss cedar!!! :'(
happy belated bdae to liying!! ((:
shall dump presents on u during the guides chalet. hah!
the orioleans are getting old!
Saturday, December 02, 2006
ok. after 2 days of work at pepper lunch, i've arrived at a conclusion: i love studying!! working really is tough. especially at such a popular franchise. can you believe it? hot plate sales hit an all time high yesterday - 8860!!! it was like a mad rush! imagine the inflow of customers. the blood vessels in my feet literally burst. i had a hard time getting myself to sleep yesterday night though i was physically exhausted. the smell of soy sauce continued to overwhelm me. i dun think i'll dare to go near a hot plate after my work term has ended. :/
and i also owe my dear mum a BIG thank you for washing the foul-smelling uniform at that unearthly hour! ((: she said that the soy sauce smell was hard to rid off. not surprsing at all. hmm, and sining and i made a pact to set aside a tidy sum of our pay for our parents. ((:
our short day at pepper lunch was fruitful. customers swamped the house from 12pm onwards. i nearly toppled a hot plate. sining had great trouble pronouncing "curry". haha. she kept saying "kali" and the customer was like "?!?!". i killed someone's cow again! great! all thanks to my horrendous cooking skills! the butter just refused to stick to the chicken. damn. and den i had a mental block coz a customer asked for more butter and when i got it, i had clean forgotten abt who had asked for it. :/
we made out departure from pepper lunch at 3 plus. it was nice to feel the floor again (i mean for our butts). haha. sining and i savoured ice cream from Ven-something. die, stm acting up again! haha. i had mint and strawberry (i noe, odd combi. but heck, it was a steal at $3!) while sining had tiramisu and bis-something (stm again!). it was so nice!!!!! i told sining dat i wanted to buy the tub of mint choc home! yeah, fat hope. maybe when i get my pay! den i'll get fat. great!
hmm, and it's really sad to see sining so sad at times! should haf seen her face when we had dinner yesterday. aiyo! cheer up, yeo! i know it's not easy being a President Guide ((:, but remember guide law no. 7 "a guide has courage and is cheerful in all difficulties." Jiayou for e Standard Chartered Marathon tmr!! you can do it! haha. (maybe i ought to reserve the encouragement for the participants of the 42km run as well) haha. jiayou people!
cluck. cluck.
voila! sweet!