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FINALLY. i've arrived at a decision. no one can blame me for not trying for tj. though it's my second choice. oh well. what can u do when the odds are against you? i don't want to look back 10 years from now and regret. after all, the results ultimately do most of the talking. as in this case. haha. and happy valentine's day to all the couples out there! haha. and old maids like me spend time by the window sill watching the crows fly past. haha. i know verena tan would be more than glad to join me in this once in a year "bird-watching" event. and i'll definitely sustain this practice for the next 50 years or so. hurhur. anyone keen to sign up for lifelong membership?
and chinese project is still untouched. mati. left 1 more day. aj has been far too generous with the jae break. haha. though i'll be more than happy to haf permanent leave. today's shopping trip was fruitful. at least for geena. wahh. seriously, the girl sure noes how to shop till she drops. zara, puma, adidas, forever 21, precious thots. haha. shopping works wonders. i bought a black skirt from pull and bear. sure get nagged at when i wear it during cny. den later i get bad luck for the rest of `07 and i haf no one to blame for it. tsk. but im not the superstitious sort. so i shall pretend dat everything is fine. ((: unless the sky crumbles down on me. we'll see. we'll see.
and thank you ver for teaching me how to make the flowers. i shall reward you wif my fantabulous cookies. i wun add salt this time round. but i cannot guarantee the final outcome. it might just be a little too sweet for salty people like you. wahaha.
Monday, February 12, 2007
met up with wan yin today and accompanied her to aj to inquire abt the jae admission criteria. but mr goh told her that the cut-off could only be determined after jae. so for now, we can only cross our fingers and hope for the best. anyway, he told her that he was 90% sure that she could make it in with 9 nett. i certainly hope so. it would be nice having pok around once more. hurhur. 1 more person for me to torture.
and i wanna thank wanyin's parents for treating me to a scrumptious breakfast at kiliney kopitiam. haha. had soya bean milk and mee siam. shiok! haha. den wanyin's dad dropped us off at taka for shopping. and i must apologise to pokky coz the shopping trip was possible only at the expense of her facial session. sorry!!! and thanks a million for accompanying me. i had the intention of purchasing the blue striped top from pull and bear initially, but i decided not to eventually as the price seemed rather steep for a top made from such material. moreover, it was the final piece. oh well. maybe next time. im sure i'll be able to find something better.
it has been 3 days since the release of the O'level results. im getting by somehow. though im still caught in the middle. cant decide as to whether i shld put tj or aj as first choice. though im well aware of my chances of ever getting admitted to tj. why live a lie right? but im tempted to try. and i know this isn't wad a sane person wld call a calculated risk. but still. haix. HOW??? boos. someone, pls enlighten me. and verena, good lah. at least ur hci ceo was able to give u some really good advice pertaining to ur jae choice. hmmm. but even mdm faridah feels dat it's better for me to stay put. aiyoo. shall roll the dice later. or flip a coin. or wait for some signs. and as the options lay before me, i know that there is one that obviously stands out from the rest. dun kid keet. the truth is often just a stone's throw away. and you know that it is no longer an issue about how far you can see; it's whether you want to see it.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
gosh. i got my 2-star certification. thank you to all who haf pushed me along the way. especially pearlyn, marion, yu rong and sining. man, what would i do w/o you guys. and thank you stanley for allowing me to pass the test even though i screwd the skills and the eskimo bow rescue. i know i still haf a long, long way to go. oh well. hopefully, i can still stay in odac and re-take my 2-star if possible. i really need to overcome my hydrophobia.
and im super scorched now. had dinner with yu rong, kelvin and daniel at the hawker centre at beach road. i know we were seriously starved...but i never expected the extent of hunger for kelvin to be so tremendous. he bought mee sua, chicken chop, tang yuan and sugar cane juice. he also helped finish up yu rong's fries. to top things off, he still has beehoon at home for supper. pro. and he's so skinny. i feel so microscopic. haha. and the drink stall auntie was studying him all that while. she gave him a free cup of iced water because she noticed dat his face was very scorched. what about us?? haha. not bad ah, auntie killer. lol.
yupp. so i'll probably be staying on in aj. this first 1 month has indeed been an eye-opener. i've grown attached to the class and odac. though im a litle disappointed with my results, i guess there's only this much i can do at this juncture. to pick up the pieces and move on. yupp. and even though making it to vj will forever remain a dream, i guess it isn't so bad after all. there's still a long, long way to go. and the difference is that im taking a different path. for it is not the end to journey towards that matters. it is the journey itself. and i thank those who haf helped me get through the first half of it.
it's just good night
and not goodbye.
Friday, February 09, 2007
well. all hell has indeed broken loose. im at a loss for words and do not know where to begin. hm, im neither happy nor sad with my results. for this amt of effort put in, i guess i am in no position to contemplate. but english was a serious letdown. i thought i could at least manage an A2. but that was not meant to be. but i wun fret. i will make it a point to put in more effort for GP. hopefully, history will not repeat itself in 2 years' time.
let us all pick up the pieces and move on. it's pointless brooding over the past. there's nth much we can do now but to make the best out of what we have. it's not the end. in fact, it's only the start of a new beginning. let the lessons of today be our source of guidance for a better tomorrow. jiayou, everyone!
today seriously stinks. can u believe it? i actually misplaced my result slip and form A? now how am i supposed to register for jae? haix. im such a goondu. didn even realise it until 8 plus at toa payoh interchange. oh well. so i called mdm faridah for SOS! had a really good talk wif her over the results. i feel really bad for attaining such a grade and disappointing her. hmm. sim choon hoon vs sim wong hoo. the marker must haf either been greatly appalled or horrendously bemused. and she heard abt ver going hysterical as well. hm, cheer up tan! i noe my words wun help much. but all has been sealed. so make the best out of things now k? dun cry anymore. we'll find a way out no matter what.
hm, so we're off to moe hq tmr morning to "celebrate". haix. nvm. shall go shopping soon to relieve all e previosly bottled up stress! yesh. a new beginning. here i come.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
less then 24 hours to the moment of truth!
people, chill! we are all in the same boat! so carmen! please put an end to the binging and mp3 blasting! you arent the only one suffering from post results depression. ahh. and some wise words from a certain wise person: no matter what happens, we gotto pick up the pieces and move on! for once, im not gonna mention the 3-letter word dat starts with d. i am a survivor! i will pull through this. we all will!
looking back, it has indeed been a memorable one mth in aj. i can still rmb how much i fretted and grumbled when i first walked through her doors. im sorry for not giving this sch a chance. but the people really showed me her true worth and how fun life in aj can be if you set ur mind on participating. i really hated myself for being so stereotypical initially. it's like what nessie said. the people and the school can embrace ur presence with open arms. but would you return the gesture? definitely. but would the results permit me to? i hope so. 15/07 couldnt haf been a more wonderful class. great people with even greater personalities! though vast the world may be, im sure our paths will cross once more. ((: jiayou everyone!
sinyi
kaitian ah siao
geena 8 pack
noeleen
jasmine
candy
sok yin the bhb
yu xin nu er
munirah
josephine
lirong
fiona stinko
elaine
junyang
terry bear
zhen yang st nics
kelvin cockroach
han wei ba gua
lek wen
hwee sheng
jianrong
kuan teck
vishal
edwin
<3 15`07
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
1 more day before all hell breaks loose!!
i can feel the anxiety builidng up with each passing day. it's madness. ahh!! odac was fun as usual! we played games and did bouldering. and i found that "17%" fats guy aka as weijie!!! but apparently, the fact was twisted slightly and he turns out to haf only 15.9% body fats! why must he make me feel so microscopic? lol. haha. i haf a long, long way to go. unlike someone. how can you possibly be complaining abt ur fat percentage arnd ppl like me?!?! qian bian!
and im so gonna die. there's still one trunk load full of homework awaiting completion. and i just reached home not too long ago. it was a very impromptu dinner. hah. shld haf brought chem along to do. oh man. what's becoming of me?! hah. aiyo. im bound to suffer from a lack of snooze as usual. and there's chinese. die. how to finish?! somebody, save me!
and marion ah! didn want to dao you de. dun be so pessimistic ok? it's not the end of the road. in fact, it's just about the beginning. for all of us. u r not simply going to walk out on us after 4 yrs of friendSAMPAN right? we've braved so many storms. don't let this drizzle weigh you down. don't stop being yourself. i know that the psycho is in there somewhere! scream, cheer, groove! you don't haf to prove anything to anyone. just be answerable to yourself! at least you gave it a good shot! and for that, you ought to be proud. don't let us down. the blue people will always be behind you! all the way! don't give up on us; for we'll never give up on you! ((:
And if I lived a thousand years
You know, I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
That day.
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you tonight?
Monday, February 05, 2007
4 MORE DAYS to the moment of TRUTH!!!!!! :/
big news. big news. oh man. this is the final moment. the last stand.
shall be well-equipped wif barrels and lots of tissue. any sponsers?
it'll be nice to see all my darlings again. haha. but coincidentally, i met them at J8 today!!!
huag and candice!! and i must apologise to KEL and sok yin coz i kinda pangsehed them. sorry! paiseh! needed to go buy someone's bdae present. haha. hope she'll like it. no, she will LOVE it. right now, i need to brace myself for what's ahead. no matter what happens, i ought to pick up the pieces and move on. yeahh. and i will be strong! ((:
haha. and the stupid plant cell is finally completed. $18 vacuole and 60 cents organelles. what the. sounds so wrong. hah. but im sure that our grp's vacuole will be the last one standing. haha. at least there will be no bacteria or maggot infestation. lol. and geena was saying that ppl in the library couldnt keep their hands off our models. haha. well, i know our models are gorgeous. haha. thank you! lol. scully half the vacuole is gone when we go check on the plant cell tmr. lol. so nice to touch. :D
the end of the end can be found at the end of the end.
the end nears.
a faint, faltering silence...
Saturday, February 03, 2007
bio is driving me nuts. today, we managed to mould out 6 chloroplasts, 3 mitochondria, 1 big fat nucleus (which seems to bear an uncanny resemblance to a mooncake), golgi body aka zheng yang's masterpiece and rough er. siao. and we kept talking abt ba gua and han wei. lol. now, this is going to be one very expensive plant cell. we chalked up 50 plus bucks worth of purchases. for e.g., dear han wei bought 6 cubes of oven-baked clay ($4+++ each) instead of plasticine (60 cents each)! and now, he has to pay the ultimate price! haha. but often, things are more den what they actually seem. and for now, with rising bag gua indexes, han wei shld make full use of the opportunity! lol! haha. but of course, im no better off being a pork chop. anw, i want to thank both zhen yang and han wei for accompanying me to try on the shorts from U2 and OP. haha. shopping seems to rank second after sleeping on my list of slacking activities. kayaking is tmr! die, die, die! die also must stay calm and keep my cool! i think im more likely to die from paranoia den from drowning. and i'll replenish my share of blue-blacks as usual. crap. just as i am abt to recover...tsk tsk.
there's still a trunk load full of hw awaiting completion. how am i ever going to start, less mentioning finish. and here i am wasting time on blogging and chatting. haha. a zebra nvr changes it stripes. well, i guess i'll stop here. let's see whether will i return as a dead fish or a charred one tmr evening. either or, i'll probably be as tired as ever. and suddenly, i yearn for the release of results so that i can finally take a break. the truth always hurts somehow. yet ironcally, that also happens to be the only way in which people learn best. good night! ((:
a smile is a curve that sets everything straight
a kayak is a boat that steers one in the right direction
kallang river is the water body that brings blue into my black and white life.
and now, we know the origins of blue-blacks.
my hands were too itchy. cldn't resist the temptation of changing blogskins again. and im so in love with this particular one about fairytales! my break from reality.
today was yet another long day. 15`07 went bersek as usual. sok yin and candy became students of cath high. fiona wore marist uniform. junyang wore his brother's anderson uniform and han wei wore a torn pe t-shirt. -.-" haha. and as for the real girls - geena wore st. marg's polka dotted dress with the cute clip on tie, yu xin wore cedar u, nolene wore bbss, and the list goes on. im officially lost. wahh. countless probabilities. and needless to say, i looked like a primary sch kid in the anderson and st. nic pinafoles. i know i look youthful. -.-"
cross-country was fun! haha. though i miss running at macritchie and the company of friends such as giant spiders, snakes, ants, mosquitoes, blah. the route was pretty direct at bishan park. i really had a good time running! ((: a big thank you to those who haf provided me wif constant encouragement and support! i really appreciate it! especially marion. haha. the girl got top 5 in the house category! yay!! so proud of her! lol. but the irritating thing abt today's event was when the j2s on duty said that we only had 300m more to run before we completed the race! but guess what??!?! after running 300m, someone else said dat we had 800m more to go!!! what a way to make people run faster! rofl! but it was fun all the same!
after we were dismissed, the class went nuts over taking pictures. of course, people like sok yin couldnt stop taking shots of herself. haha. i love 15`07 like nuts!! ((: we are all cam-whored! and we couldnt stop singing as well. siao ah. later, i had og dinner at cafe cartel with hui min, yu xin, sophie, ah ma, cherie, cepheus, chong yang, dick, sheng hong and daniel! expensive meat. tsk tsk. burnt another big hole in my already holey pocket. die. i suck at finance management! and more and more people are saying that the results will be released on tue or wed. my mum said dat ite registration starts on 8th feb (thurs). geena's mum thinks dat the official day is either tue or wed. wan yin's principal announced dat it wld be on tuesday. haix. oh well, the truth has to come eventually. and at the end of the day, the results do most of the talking. better prepare a die soon and start re-examining my options (if im left with any, that is). kayaking's on sunday! *shivers* and im gg to the pool tmr to practice holding my breath underwater. cant let the fear control me! for now, i shld start doing something abt my obese work pile. haix. jiayou!
so little time
so much to do
i'd rather spend my day with you.